What are you doing, God?

“What are you doing, God?”

The words tumbled out of my mouth, a mix of pain, confusion and frustration.  Hearing my daughter’s sobs as she cried over the loss of another of her animals pierced my heart.

As a parent, I didn’t want my children to live in a bubble.  They needed to experience the challenges of “real” life, but I admit…there was a part of me that wanted to shield them from certain aspects until I thought they were “old” enough to handle it.

Yet, that had not been the case.

In fairly rapid succession our daughter had experienced the loss of her first horse, her first calf, a dog, a cat, and a rabbit.  While for some, this may not have been a huge deal, for her this was a great loss, for each one of these animals was loved deeply.

And now another rabbit – the favorite – had escaped into the forest surrounding our house.  We had searched for him diligently day after day…

But he had disappeared.

He was lost.

And now I was on my knees before my Heavenly Father…

Because I didn’t understand.

How much loss could one little girl take?

As I continued to pray, God reminded me that He was also her Heavenly Father, and she was precious in His sight.  Even in this loss, He was working beneath the surface and would turn it into something for her good.

As I finished my prayer that day – tears still trickling down my face – I placed her and these losses into His hands, and asked that He would, indeed, accomplish something beautiful.

And He did…in two ways.

Two weeks tumbled into three, and was nearing the fourth when a remarkable event took place…

One day, while out hiking through the bushes, our daughter turned around.  She watched as her favorite rabbit hopped right up to her and waited until she picked him up.  Even though it was winter at the time, Mischievous was as fat and shiny as could be.  There wasn’t a nick on him.

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The Lost Rabbit that was found:D

When she brought him to me, I could hardly believe it.  Those kinds of things just didn’t happen around our place.  With foxes and coyotes and the occasional wolf, any rabbits that ventured to far from their hutches and were gone for an extended period of time…

Didn’t come home.

Yet, this time it was different.

Although, God didn’t answer our prayers right away, He was saving the answer to teach us a valuable lesson.

To trust Him that He knows what He is doing, and that He will provide the answer at the right time, in the right way, to accomplish His plans and purposes.  Nothing was too hard for Him…

Even providing for and protecting a lost rabbit until it was time for him to be found:D

As for the other animals that had not had such a dramatic rescue, but had been laid to rest in the earth…

Here is what God was accomplishing.

One day while out riding, my husband asked our daughter how she felt about so many of her animals dying.

What was her answer?

“It hurts a lot, but I know that these light and momentary troubles are achieving for me an eternal glory that will outweigh them all.”

When I heard this response, my tears began again.

In the midst of all the loss…the pain…the tears…God was fashioning a heart that was learning to look up and trust Him…

Even when it hurt.

God did know what He was doing.

For we know that in all things, God works everything together for good to those who love Him, to those who are called according to His purpose.  For…

He knows the plans for us…plans of good and not of evil.  Plans for a hope and a future.

For…

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny?  Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside of our Father’s care.  Even the very hairs of our head our numbered.  So do not be afraid, for we are worth more than many sparrows.

Therefore…

We do not lose heart…for our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.  So…

We fix our eyes not on what is see, but on what is unseen.  For what is seen is temporary.  What is unseen is eternal.

(Taken from Romans 8:28, Jeremiah 29:11, Matthew 10:29 – 31, 2. Corinthians 4:16 – 18)

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Don’t lose heart